I often get asked by people if I'm not scared to white water kayak. The answer is most definitely yes. I often feel like I'll be overwhelmed by fear. Regularly I reach the river and think that I even hate kayaking. "What am I doing; I'm too old for this"...sentences like this run through my mind. My heart is pounding, my hands shaking and I wish I'd just stayed doing whatever it was I was doing before I arrived.